Posts filed under ‘abuse’

what i am and not

i am not some character in a grandiose play.

i am not some object to be molded out of a lifeless piece of clay.

i am no one’s obligation

or

a servant on a leash.

I am myself to be.

~ SO ~

you can respect me

or

you can leave me ~

either way,

i am

who

i am meant to be.

in memory of my mom,
who never could

September 2, 2014 at 3:15 pm 23 comments

reviling

cause of invisible pain

intangible weapon of destruction

can decimate one’s spirit

words of a bully

June 25, 2014 at 11:31 am 15 comments

duality

Ω

the observer does nothing

the doer destroys oneself

both strong and weak

one and the same

Ω

Ω

May 8, 2014 at 4:26 pm 10 comments

healing

*

*

scars are so exhausting –

always present

– some big, some small –

constant reminders

of stupidity,

ignorance,

the how’s and why’s

and

the pain they have inflicted

but

most exhausting of all

is

the process of acceptance,

forgiveness,

letting go…

healing.

*

*

hawaii

The Big Island of Hawaii
along the northeast coast
2007

 

February 27, 2014 at 5:30 pm 7 comments

each and every

i look at each and every scar

and

recall when each and every one was made.

i can remember the frustration,

the reasons,

the sting.

still feel the anger,

hurt,

and

sadness

and

pain.

we all carry a mark of sorts –

some many

or

only a few.

some are out in the open for all the world to see

or

hidden deep far, far away from view.

whatever the case,

each and every scar is mine –

they belong to no one else.

i am not unique,

i am like each and every person –

human –

living –

dealing –

with the hand

i have been dealt.

November 20, 2013 at 3:00 pm 18 comments

dawning of darkness

˜

her darkness has always existed

its been around since the dawning of time –

with the eruption of his voice

her innocence fled –

to a place no one could possibly find.

˜

fear resides in this haven

like a torch illuminating a cave.

its flames sustained by suspicion

creating a most impetuous blaze.

˜

there are times when the embers smolder

this is ONLY when her children are near,

when she can feel their love & trust

and

allow the light to wipe away her tears.

˜

˜

˜

October 13, 2013 at 3:45 pm 22 comments

stifled

ˆ

drowning in one’s thoughts,

suffocating in one’s feelings,

strangled by sadness –

unable to breathe.

ˆ

haunted by a past,

blinded by mistrust,

unable to see through the darkness –

one’s forward path.

ˆ

with eyes wrapped in a shroud

and

voice stifled by fear,

an existence is paved

but

going nowhere.

ˆ

though entombed in a cave

far from the light…

words slip through the cracks –

bringing

one’s feelings

to

life.

ˆ

ˆ

ˆ 

September 30, 2013 at 2:45 pm 4 comments

the looking glass

truth or distortion?

what is it you see?

is it a contrived perception

or

the person you believe yourself to be?

a mirror can be a friend –

revealing beauty

inside or out.

it can also be a fraud –

killing life’s dreams

and

fueling one’s doubts.

there is always too much –

never any less.

nothing ever seems right,

though we desperately try our best.

the eyes only see

what they alone can see

and

the mind stands behind

to confirm what it all means.

some people find contentment –

they are happy just to be

and

there are those

who struggle daily

never

liking

what they see.

August 29, 2013 at 4:46 pm 4 comments

illusion then & now

*

dreams of fairies, swans and dolls

ruled a childhood

from the earliest dawn.

*

bobby pins, tulle, satin and lace

created an illusion –

cloaked the scars on her face.

*

pirouettes, arabesques, and jetes abound –

freedom of movement

in which a life could be found.

*

the studio and stage –

being her only home,

where the world was shut out

and

she could feel safe on her own.

*

dreaming, dancing, LIFE – they are all the same

they create an illusion

of smiles, beauty and grace

but

the reality is such

no one chooses to see –

it’s what we do to ourselves to be

what you want us to be.

ς

ς

 

August 28, 2013 at 3:20 pm 14 comments


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